Letting myself be

“Letting myself be who I am”,
Never really understood that.
How do find out one thing,
When I like so many others?
They say not to follow the crowd,
But there are so many, 
I get lost so easy.
Why can’t I just have a map,
And not have to figure this out?
Although they say it’s the journey,
Not the end goal.
My mind is just in a blur, 
‘Cause I need to know now.
Who should I be with?
Who will let me be “myself”?
Whatever that is.
I don’t want to go through that,
Give me my heart back,
I don’t want it in pieces.
Did I really ever love you?
Heaven only knows.